every time i close my eyes i see bliss. i see nature and trees and waterfalls. there are flowers everywhere. there are no drugs, no alcohol and no crime. the world is peaceful. everywhere you go you smell daisies and the sun is always shining. it never rains and there natural disasters. everyone is happy. there is no hurt. i wish i lived in that world.
she was different. she would sit by herself and observe. she would understand. she would get perfect grades and no one would know. she wouldn't speak foul about anyone, she was a pure spirit but no one would know. she was beautiful under all the hair that she hid under but no one would know. one day she would be big. she would be out of school and she would make something out of herself. one day she would be loved, and no one would know.
as you lie down to rest that night, all you feel is comfort. you feel the warmth of your cashmere socks compressing your feet in a softness. you smell the familiar scent of vanilla soap from your warm bubbly bath. you taste the chamomile tea you were sipping at just a minute ago. you see the bunches of lavender flowers hung around your windows. you remember all the quotes you read that day. you write in your journal and lean into your pillows and add one more sentence. 'i found myself'.